• A black and white photograph of a raw iron fence line with the closest ring in focus and everything else being blurred out.
    Blind,  Photography

    A Shot in the Dark: Still Chasing Light as a Blind Photographer

    Hi, I’m Jefferson Davis, I’m a photographer. It still feels a little absurd saying that out loud sometimes, like confessing a quirky habit at an awkward support group meeting. “Hi, my name is Jefferson, and I’m a blind guy who insists on taking pictures.” But here I am, more than five decades into this wild ride on planet Earth, still hauling cameras around and clicking shutters, even as my vision fades.

    It all started way back when I was just one day old. I contracted spinal meningitis in the hospital, a brutal infection that nearly ended my story before it really began. I survived, but the damage was done. It triggered Septo-Optic Dysplasia, a condition that destroyed my left eye in infancy and set off a slow, relentless optic atrophy in my right. Over the years, that right eye has dwindled to about five degrees of usable vision, a tiny peephole into the world, and nothing at all in the left. It’s progressive, irreversible, and one day, likely soon, that small window will close completely. But here’s the honest truth: I’m grateful for the sliver I still have. It lets me glimpse shapes, contrasts, and colors in a way that keeps me tethered to the visual world I’ve loved for so long.

    Molly Burke, the advocate and podcaster who’s built a platform around her own blindness, put it perfectly in a recent discussion (paraphrasing from memory): the physical challenges of not seeing are tough, but the social side of blindness, the stares, the assumptions, the isolation, is often the real gut punch. I couldn’t agree more. The cane, the fumbling, the daily adaptations? Those are hurdles I can navigate. It’s the way the world sometimes reacts that stings the deepest.

    I still vividly remember my first few trips to the local coffee shop after my vision loss became obvious and I had to use the white cane. I’d walk in with my white cane tapping ahead, and the entire room would fall silent. Conversations halted mid-sentence. I could feel the eyes locking onto me, the unspoken questions hanging in the air: “What’s wrong with him?” “Is he really blind?” “Why is he even here?” The awkwardness was suffocating. It took weeks before the regulars adjusted. Eventually, the stares turned to nods, then smiles, then jokes. We started chatting about the weather, the latest news, or how strong the brew was that day. That shift felt like a small victory. But getting there required me to push through the discomfort, to show up anyway.

    These days, the white cane is practically an extension of my arm. I don’t flinch when people stare or whisper. Until I receive a guide dog (and yes, I’ve had plenty of well-meaning folks ask when that’s happening), the cane is non-negotiable for safe, independent mobility. In the blind community, there’s a quiet understanding that guide dogs often carry less stigma.  They’re seen as “heroic” or “inspirational,” while the cane can still evoke pity or confusion. But I refuse to let outdated attitudes dictate my choices. I go where I want, when I want, cane in hand, no apologies.

    Now, to the part that really baffles people: I’m blind, and I still photograph. When I sling an old film camera over my shoulder, I can practically hear the mental gears grinding in onlookers heads. “Wait… he’s blind. Why is he taking pictures? How does that even work?” I’ve been interrupted mid-shot more times than I can count, strangers stepping right up, genuinely puzzled or sometimes skeptical, asking exactly that.

    The answer is straightforward, at least to me. I’ve been making photographs for over 40 years. Some of it was casual fun, some professional gigs, but all of it rooted in a deep love for capturing moments. Losing most of my sight didn’t erase that passion; it just changed how I pursue it. Think about it this way: if you’d spent decades playing golf, perfecting your swing, chasing birdies on the green, dand then lost your vision, would you quit the game entirely? Or would you adapt, find new ways to feel the club, hear the ball drop, sense the course? Of course you’d try to keep playing. Photography is my golf. It’s the thing that lights me up, keeps me engaged with the world, and gives me purpose.

    It’s not easy anymore, and I won’t sugarcoat that. I can’t see what’s in the frame most of the time. Shutter speeds and aperture markings? Forget it, unless I pull out my 22x magnifier, squint hard, and hold it up against the lens, those tiny numbers are a blur. Focusing is guesswork, composition relies on memory and, muscle memory, and sometimes just instinct. I frame shots based on what I think is there, drawing on decades of sighted experience. I listen to the sounds around me, feel the light on my skin, remember the layout of a familiar spot. Every click is a leap of faith.

    And yet, when the film is scanned onto the computer, there’s magic in it. My wife helps me review them, and together we decide what works. Some images surprise even me; others capture exactly the feeling I was chasing. One day, when that last bit of vision is gone, she’ll still have those negatives, those files, those frozen slices of time. That’s enough for me.

    Of course, not everyone gets it. The skeptics are the hardest to deal with, the ones who watch me pour creamer into my coffee at the same shop I’ve visited hundreds of times and decide they’ve “caught” me faking. They don’t realize I’ve memorized the counter layout, the position of the sugar packets, the pour spout on the creamer jug. It’s adaptation, not deception. I’ve had ophthalmologists, neurologists, specialists galore confirm the extent of my vision loss. But some people seem determined to prove otherwise.

    I’m always open to genuine questions, though. If someone approaches with real curiosity, ”What’s the cane for?” “How do you know when to click?”, I’m happy to chat. Kids are the best at this; they haven’t learned to filter or judge yet. They’ll walk right up, point at the cane, and ask point-blank. Those conversations are gold. They remind me that education happens one honest exchange at a time.

    The “why are you even bothering?” crowd, though? That gets old fast.

    I’m not alone in this pursuit. There are perhaps a couple dozen known blind or visually impaired photographers worldwide—creative souls like Pete Eckert, who shoots conceptually from memory and imagination; Evgen Bavčar, whose work explores photography as a conceptual language; Alice Wingwall; Henry Butler; and others who’ve turned limitation into innovation. Some rely entirely on sound, touch, and visualization; others, like me, cling to that remaining bit of sight. We’re a small but stubborn group, proving that the urge to create images doesn’t vanish when eyesight does.

    For me, it’s about holding onto joy. Photography keeps me connected to people, to places, to the fleeting beauty of everyday life. Even if I only glimpse a fraction of the 24x36mm frame on film, that fraction matters. It keeps me alive in ways nothing else quite does.

    So yeah, I’m a blind photographer. It’s a contradiction that makes perfect sense to me. And as long as I can hold a camera steady, I’ll keep shooting. The world can stare all it wants, I’m too busy chasing the next shot in the dark.

  • An AI generated photograph of a road leading into Norman, Oklahoma. There is a title that states, "We Moved".
    Blind,  Life,  Photography

    Why We Moved from Arizona to Norman, Oklahoma: A Personal Journey

    For over a year, my wife and I had been on an exhausting search for a used home we could actually afford in Arizona. With housing prices skyrocketing and my vision declining, our choices felt increasingly narrow. We could have stayed and poured every dollar into exorbitant rent, leaving us scraping by without enough for basics like food, or we could pack up and start fresh elsewhere. As much as we both adored Arizona’s landscapes, climate, and memories, it simply wasn’t sustainable. Tough as it was, we knew it was time to leave.

    My wife’s family roots run deep in the Norman, Oklahoma area, and I’d fallen in love with the place during a week-long visit we took a while back. The friendly vibe, the open spaces, and the genuine warmth of the people stuck with me. So, we turned our sights eastward. In Arizona, even a modest one-bedroom felt out of reach on our average salaries, but crossing a couple of states into Oklahoma opened up possibilities we hadn’t dreamed of. After months of careful research, heartfelt discussions, and weighing every pro and con, we took the plunge and bought a charming three-bedroom home right here in the Norman area.

    We’ve been in our new house for nearly a month now, still surrounded by half-unpacked boxes and bubbling with that new-home excitement and aching back. The sense of community here feels real and immediate, a far cry from the isolation we sometimes felt before.

    Just the other day, for the first time since moving in, I ventured out for a longer adventure: a roughly four-mile walk exploring parts of the city. Downtown Norman is buzzing with activity these days, with quite a bit of construction reshaping the area, new developments, infrastructure upgrades, and revitalization projects that promise to breathe even more life into the heart of the city. Navigating those zones as a legally blind guy could have been tricky, but the construction crews were incredibly kind and patient, guiding me safely through the hazards with clear directions and helpful hands. I had an absolute blast chatting with folks along the way, strangers who stopped to talk, share stories, or just say hello. The whole experience left me feeling safe, connected, and invigorated.

    That said, Norman isn’t without its challenges. Like many growing cities, there’s a visible issue with homelessness, and the city council has been deeply engaged in debates about solutions, including proposals for a permanent shelter funded through a bond vote. With budget deficits and ongoing discussions about priorities, it’s a complex topic that reflects the city’s commitment to addressing real needs while balancing resources. But beneath those growing pains, Norman brims with character, the kind that’s hard to find in bigger, more polished places. The people here are genuinely great: down-to-earth, helpful, and quick to lend a hand.

    As a classic university town, home to the University of Oklahoma, Norman pulses with energy. You’ll encounter all walks of life, students, professors, families, artists, and athletes creating a vibrant mix that’s always refreshing. There’s constantly something happening: games at the stadium, events on campus, festivals, or just the lively hum of daily life. It’s big enough to feel like a proper city (without the overwhelming chaos of nearby Oklahoma City), yet it retains that welcoming, small-town heart, perfect for this country fella who’s always preferred wide-open spaces over endless sprawl.

    The one thing I’m still hunting for is that perfect coffee spot with the right community feel. There are plenty of options within easy walking distance, Starbucks, Dutch Bros, Stella Nova, and more, but they’re not quite hitting the mark for me.  Back in Payson, Arizona, I was a regular at Common Grounds, a true local hangout where folks gathered every morning to chat, catch up on news, and build real connections. They even kept my own dedicated coffee mug on a special hook, complete with Braille labeling so I could find it easily. It felt like home.

    Here in Norman, I’m optimistic I’ll discover something close. I’m planning to explore them one by one until I find that spot where I can become a regular again.

    All in all, we’re thrilled to be here in Norman, putting down roots and embracing this new chapter. Our home feels like a true blessing, spacious, affordable, and filled with potential.

    As we get more settled, I look forward to sharing more stories and diving back into writing about my lifelong passion: photography and vintage film cameras. Being legally blind hasn’t dimmed that love one bit. With no useful vision in my left eye and just a narrow 5-degree tunnel in my right, the world is mostly shadows and shapes to me. But photography has been part of my life for decades. It’s about feeling the moment, composing through instinct and memory, and capturing beauty in ways that transcend sight. Old film cameras, with their tactile controls and timeless mechanics, are especially magical. I can’t wait to talk more about them soon!

  • Moving to Arizona
    Life

    Moving on…

    As you might have noticed, there has been a lack of posts lately. My photography has stalled to a memory. All of this, however, is for an amazing reason.

    As Spring has sprung, we have been planning and working hard behind the scenes in the Davis household. After much research and heartfelt thought, Deana and I have decided that we are moving to Arizona, where she grew up. My amazing and beautiful wife spent her childhood in an oasis in the desert, and she loves and misses it dearly. The decision was not easy, as we will both miss family and friends here immensely, but it is a great time to move and still a seller’s market in South Carolina.

    I am excited to share that I will be transferring to a similar position in the northern half of Arizona. The prospect of this move fills me with anticipation and joy. While I have a deep love for my home and family here in South Carolina, I won’t miss the allergies or the oppressive heat and 100% humidity that plagues July and August. I have always had a passion for travel and embarking on new adventures, and this move presents a perfect opportunity for that.

    As previously stated in several posts, I am in the process of going blind. Our hope is that I have more than two years before I lose my vision entirely. So, while I can still see, I am looking forward to capturing the beauty of the West through my lens. The vast landscapes, the picturesque deserts, and the breathtaking sunsets are all calling to me, and I aim to photograph as much as I can.

    Currently, we are in the process of finding the right buyer for our home. We have put a lot of effort into getting the house ready for sale, and we are eagerly awaiting the next steps. Until we finalize the sale and make the move, there may not be any new posts on the site. Our days are filled with work and house showings, leaving little time for writing, developing film, or taking new photographs. It has been a shocker, not having had the chance to photograph anything in a month.

    All that said, as soon as the house is sold, I will be back with more updates and plan to document our week-long journey west on the blog. The excitement is palpable, and I am looking forward to sharing this new chapter with you all. Stay tuned for more adventures from the Davis household! I can’t wait!

  • Jefferson Davis Reflection
    Life

    Stuck

    As I pen this entry, I hope it will mark the end of a series of “blind” updates for some time. Have you ever found yourself in an inescapable predicament? My dialogue will carefully omit any direct reference to my employer, a vast global entity. Before the devastating prognosis of my impending blindness, and the ensuing revocation of my driving privileges, I found fulfillment in my profession and thrived on a perfect work routine.

    My earlier schedule had me traveling to a neighboring town for work, beginning at 5:00 AM and ending at 1:30 PM from Monday to Friday. My return home was typically around 2:00 PM, allowing me the luxury of a brief rest before tending to household duties and at times, preparing dinner for my wife, Deana. This routine suited us well, allowing us to enjoy our evenings together, and even catch a movie after her workday had concluded.

    Following the dire revelation about my vision, I was compelled to request a transfer to a branch within walking proximity to my home. This transition was protracted, lasting a month, with three weeks in which I received no compensation. My role in the corporation pertained to merchandising—a field I had not sought academic training for nor anticipated finding enjoyable. However, my penchant for order, structure, and meticulous tasks seemed to align well with the demands of the role.

    Despite my capability and experience to perform my job without sight, the company reassigned me to an in-store position, with working hours slated from 1:30 PM to 10:00 PM on arbitrary days. My wife’s schedule has her leaving for work at 8:00 AM, during which I stay with our dogs until she returns at lunch to drive me to work. Consequently, we have been deprived of the cherished evenings we once shared. My new role demands squinting at minute details, which results in intense eye strain and headaches by day’s end.

    While my employer has fulfilled the legal obligations, their support has not extended beyond that. My objections to this decision are manifold. I am naturally inclined towards early mornings, valuing the ability to complete my workday ahead of time and spend evenings with my loved ones.

    Pursuing alternative employment remains a viable option, yet I am faced with the dilemma that full disclosure of my visual impairment may render me unemployable. While part-time work is attainable, it would compromise my access to quality health insurance. The coverage I currently hold is excellent, but parting ways with my job or reducing hours would precipitate a twofold increase in insurance costs. My wife’s insurance plan does not cover dependents, which further immobilizes me in my current role.

    My aspirations for financial support through my blog and magazine, alongside print sales, have yet to yield significant results, though I express my deepest gratitude to everyone who has engaged with my work.

    Under South Carolina’s regulations, disability benefits are inaccessible to me until my vision constricts to 20 degrees or less; currently, it stands at approximately 40 degrees. The Commission for the Blind is a resource, but its primary focus is to ensure employment for the visually impaired. Despite these challenges, I am determined to persevere in the hope of a breakthrough, but the everyday struggle is real, with a mortgage and other bills aligning with the fiscal responsibilities that many of us face.

    It is not my intent to lament my circumstances; however, I cannot ignore the reality of the corner I seem to be trapped in. I am contending with Septo Optic Dysplasia and Optic Atrophy, amongst a long list of other challenges, and yet I take solace in the fact that I’m still able to provide for my family—this is undeniably a positive. The unwavering support from my wife, Deana, has been nothing short of heroic, and her strength is a blessing for which I am eternally grateful.

    Should anyone have practical suggestions for additional sources of income, I would be keen to hear them. We seek your ideas and assistance. While I seldom mention it, there is a tip jar situated on the right side of the blog—for those inclined to support my endeavors with the equivalent of a coffee, it would be greatly appreciated. In my forthcoming post, which you can expect on Monday, I will discuss my preferred and reasonably priced folding medium format camera.

    While I have pursued photography as a business venture for several years, it has not been financially lucrative for me. The ordeal nearly overwhelmed me at times. Nevertheless, it is an endeavor that brings tranquility to my spirit. Its absence would leave a void within me — for it is intricately tied to my identity.

    I am the individual who approaches others with enthusiasm about cameras, only to reveal that I am progressing towards blindness. This revelation often elicits surprise and confusion; however, I find a certain satisfaction in such reactions. People are strange, but so am I.

    It is my intention to share my narrative with you, one that intertwines simplicity with complexity. I invite you to subscribe to this blog for further insights and to explore more of my photographic journey.

  • Blind Cane
    Life

    Walking With a Blind Cane

    Living with vision impairment involves constant learning and adaptation, and my recent experiences have truly highlighted this journey. Participating in orientation and mobility training with a specialist from Columbia was not just an educational endeavor, but a life-affirming one. The specialist displayed a remarkable combination of professional expertise and compassionate support that has empowered me in ways I hadn’t imagined possible.

    Navigating the world without full sight is fraught with potential hazards. While the technical jargon is vast, the fundamental goal remains straightforward: avoid accidents, whether with vehicles, bicycles, or obstacles on the path. Mastery of the blind cane is crucial in this respect. The various tips that adorn the cane—a marvel of simple design—are surprisingly communicative, furnishing tactile feedback about the ground underfoot and the obstacles flanking the path.

    A mundane commute can be a gauntlet for those with visual impairments. My daily journey involves a half-mile trek along a sidewalk that is not always in the best of repair. Here, the cane serves as an invaluable ally, probing the terrain for perils and helping me maintain a straight course. Transitioning from sidewalk to road signifies an escalation in risk, and it is here that a careful pace and keen hearing become my guardians against the dangers that quiet electric cars, like a Tesla, might present.

    The complicated intersections are a particular concern. One such crossing I regularly navigate requires traversing four lanes of traffic, set at an unusual angle, lacking the guidance of audible pedestrian signals. Here, the life-saving virtues of patience and acute listening are never more apparent. The near-silent approach of electric vehicles heightens the peril, making it essential to rely upon one’s auditory senses to a degree that those with vision might find hard to fathom.

    The message I wish to impart to drivers is one of vigilance and empathy. Keep watch for those of us with canes; these are not mere accessories but vital tools signaling the presence of a visually impaired or blind person navigating the byways and thoroughfares you share. I brandish my cane not just for personal navigation and safety but also as a clear signal to you, the driver, alerting you to my presence and my needs. This cane is for depth perception when negotiating rough terrain and a visible beacon to declare my visual limitations to the surrounding traffic.

    Our roads, our paths, they are shared spaces. As participants in this communal realm, we bear a collective responsibility to ensure safety for all members, especially those who confront these spaces without the benefit of sight. The kindness drivers display in being mindful of visually impaired pedestrians like myself makes an indelible difference; it makes these journeys less daunting and the world a little more accessible, one thoughtful act at a time.